No one can fill-up your absence when we fell apart,
The sparks you felt became dusts blown away in the dark,
Closure was never given, I lingered until I can,
I can forget everything, but you will never be forgiven.
During and after, it was always my responsibility to understand,
I accepted your flaws and love your traits I used to can’t stand,
Complicated it may seem, we’re the only one who understand what we had,
Yet you left me hanging, standing alone in the dark.
Every minute without you kills me while you found someone new after few days,
Shaking and trembling, you never meant anything you have promised,
Was your real intention is to lead me first?
Leading me onto something you will only burst.
Faces change, time passed, had new seasonal friends,
Your face is familiar, the hands I used to hold in the past,
Left with no choice, I accepted that our time has end,
You acted like I hurt your badly in order to replace me that fast.
Do you love her or you just love that you have move forward?
I was left with the fear of having the commitment that we never had,
You taught me your language that only we can understand,
I can never speak it to anyone else, it feels so sad.
I love how I say your name yet my brother is disgusted,
He said, "why are you still holding on to everything that that jerk have promised?"
I hate how I still do believe that we can still exist,
Here, no one to hold on, I am still wounded and will never be healed.
